Season 1: Public Spaces Collection

Light sensitivity in a fluorescent aisle: field note 02

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Hey. It’s Wren. I’m here with you. Take a moment to notice where you are right…

Hey. It’s Wren. I’m here with you.

Take a moment to notice where you are right now. The surface under you. The air around your face. The position of your body.

If you can, put your phone face down. Not far. Just out of sight for a moment.

Close your eyes for a second, or soften your focus.

Breathe in through your nose. Out through your mouth.

You’re not late. You’re not behind anything. You’re just here.

Let’s go in.

The Story

You’re standing near the entrance, trolley or basket in hand, or maybe neither yet.

The light here doesn’t come from one place. It’s flat, white, coming from everywhere at once, and it makes everything look slightly the same temperature. Somewhere a freezer vibrates. A till beeps every few seconds, never quite in sync with anything else. Wheels squeak on the floor, some near, some far, all slightly different pitches.

None of this needs fixing. It’s just what this room does.

Four things in this room don’t move:

The end-of-aisle sign, the same size and shape at every junction.

The floor line where one tile meets the next, running the length of the store.

The checkout belt, always in the same place, always doing the same job.

The clock above the tills, if there is one, and if there isn’t, the till display doing the same work.

Pick one. Let it be somewhere your eyes can return to.

Someone’s trolley wheel catches and squeaks, over and over, until they turn a corner and it stops. A tannoy announcement comes on, garbled at the edges, then cuts off mid-sentence. The freezer noise drops slightly in pitch as its motor cycles, then rises back.

None of it is random once you’ve stood here a minute. The tannoy comes on roughly the same volume each time. The tills beep at close to the same interval. The pattern’s there, just slower than you’d expect to notice it.

Move your feet. Notice the floor under your feet, smoother in the main aisle, slightly gritty near the entrance where trolleys have dragged something in from outside.

Breathe in for three. Out for four. Your breath doesn’t need to keep pace with the tannoy or the tills. It has its own timing, running underneath all of it.

The shelves repeat. Same brand, different size, same brand, different flavour, on and on down the aisle. You don’t have to take in all of it at once. Let your eyes move along just one shelf, one row, without trying to read every label.

Someone passes close behind you, trolley wheels loud for a second, then fading. You don’t need to track where they went.

Picture reaching for one thing, just one. Not the whole list. One item, one shelf, one motion. Your hand finds it, or doesn’t yet. Either is fine. You can put it back. You can stand here a while longer first.

If your shoulders have come up toward your ears, let them drop. If you’re gripping the trolley handle harder than you need to, loosen your hand slightly.

Look at your four points again, the sign, the floor line, the till belt, the clock or its display. They’re doing the same thing they were doing a minute ago. Nothing here is rushing you.

Breathe in. Cold air off the freezers, the vibration underneath it, the ordinary noise of a room full of people getting things done.

Breathe out. Whatever tension walked in with you.

You’re not getting through this aisle. You’re in it, noticing what’s actually here, deciding what happens next, or not deciding yet.

When you’re ready, take the next step. Or stay exactly where you are. The tills will still be beeping either way.